I’ve had a bit of a realisation lately, which I thought I’d share with you all. What is it I hear you ask?
Well, angels. Allow me to tell you.
My whole life I’ve always been more academic rather than creative. I’ve always had good grades, been in the top classes for my subjects, yada yada yada. You know what I mean. Whenever I thought of the word “creative” instantly my mind would turn to art, I can’t draw to save my life and so I thought oh well, guess I’ll stick with my academic subjects then. I also can’t sing, dance, act – anything of the sort. When I stupidly realised that writing is also a form of creativity (creative writing – wake up Chloe) I became a little more inspired, though obviously English is still classed as more of an academic subject rather than an art.
It’s only recently within the past year or so as I’ve been taking my writing to new places and creating this blog, that I’ve realised I’m a lot more creative than I thought. I always thought I was more academic because I’d get good grades in those types of subjects but couldn’t draw or paint to save my life, but over time I’ve grown to slowly realise that it’s absolutely not as black and white as it all seems.
The problem with the arts, or creative subjects as they’re also known, is that people think they’re a waste of time. We’re made to feel that we shouldn’t study or pursue them because, where is a degree in drama going to get us? Why spend years studying art and drawing when you could be getting a PhD in mathematics? Screw that. Pursue your creativity. I didn’t go to university because I would’ve studied English and quite frankly, I didn’t know where that was going to lead me when I eventually graduated and came home with no job and a degree I had no idea what to do with. I would’ve studied creative writing or English literature with publishing (not sure of the exact name, it’s something along those lines) but I never did. I don’t regret it in the sense that I sit here every day wondering why the hell I didn’t go, but I wish I could’ve still studied it without the full time commitment of actually being at university…you know?
Now, due to Youtube and social media getting bigger by the day – being a ‘creator’ as they call it, whether that’s a blogger, public figure, Youtube star etc. – it’s all becoming a lot more accepted now, which is why I think I’m actually allowing myself to try and go down this path and believe that actually yes, I could have a career in something that I actually love to do – writing.
Some people are born knowing what they want to do / who they want to be – they want to be a ballet dancer, a fire fighter, a science teacher, a popstar etc. I never knew what I wanted to be when I grew up, and I still don’t now which is why I’m kind of just coasting along at the minute and exploring the different options, allowing myself to believe that if I can dream it then I can achieve it. The only thing I know how to do wholeheartedly, is write. English was always my favourite subject at school and I’ve always exceeded at it academically (I really hope that doesn’t sound conceited) but when it came to jobs and finishing the studying to actually go out into the real world – what was I going to do with it? I thought about becoming an English teacher which is what everyone has always told me I should do ever since I was little, and even though I loved the idea of it, my heart just wasn’t in it enough to pursue it. Now that I have my own time to figure it out, I’m realising that I can just write for myself and other people and actually make a career out of it – whether that’s freelancing, blogging etc., those are the options I’m exploring at the minute, because there are people out there right now doing the things that I am, but actually getting paid for it. Who says I can’t push myself to be next on the list?
Growing up we’re made to feel like anything that isn’t academic is a waste of time, and that we shouldn’t pursue it because it will get us nowhere. That was the mindset I grew up with and I can’t tell you how wrong that is, how damaging that is to the soul. My heart is with writing, it always has been – creative writing and poetry to name a couple of examples. I always thought to myself “right, maybe if I work hard then I can have a career in English, but I shouldn’t get too excited because it’s going to have to be something like writing boring articles in newspapers or writing instruction manuals for Ikea furniture” etc. Something that I wasn’t going to enjoy, and something that my heart definitely wasn’t going to be in, because I believed that yes I could pursue English, but only the academic side, not the artistic creative side, because that was a waste of time and I wasn’t going to get anywhere with it – I would have to sacrifice my passion and my enthusiasm for what I loved, just for the practical side of things – just because that’s the only option I thought I had in this world.
Screw that! If creativity is the path for you then follow it. Don’t let anyone tell you it’s a waste of time or that you can’t make a career for yourself out of it, because you can. There are people doing it right now as you’re reading this – who’s to say you can’t be next?
Everyone in life has their calling, and if yours happens to be in the arts, then so what? Why should we be made to feel inadequate or inferior, or less talented because of it? Like we’re a waste of being, like we could’ve been something so much more but we chose to go down a dead end path instead where we’d never achieve or amount to anything. Some people love maths and you love to draw. If that’s what your heart is telling you you were put here to do, then do it. Right now. I am so ridiculously inspired lately and I want all of you to be too, I would rather feed my soul than my bank account. If I could make a living doing what I loved with all of my passions and my soul fulfilled, even if it meant I’d barely make a living from it, I’d still choose it over anything else because that’s what I care about at the end of the day – being happy. Being inspired and growing and creating a life for myself where I love every day and what I do – what I create with it.
So I encourage you to stop reading this now and go, run my children. Be free from all of these academic constraints and pursue your creativity ♡
“You’re off to Great Places! Today is your day! Your mountain is waiting, so… get on your way!”
All my love,