not so deep (chatty)


Hello my angels,

I put up a post last week where I mentioned I was wanting to start working on a book this year, and a lot of you were asking about it!  So I’ve been thinking, and I thought it would be a good idea to share my thought process and basically, what sparked the idea in the first place…

I watched this video recently where Orion Carloto talks about how to basically get yourself published – I’ve followed Orion for a couple of years now (I originally found her on Tumblr before she even started Youtube) and now she’s a published author. I will admit that I haven’t read her actual book Flux yet because it’s another thing I haven’t quite got around to doing so far, but I do love her writing and know how beautiful her words can be, as like I said I originally found her before she got big and started with all the other things.

The video I mentioned is a Q&A (definitely take a look) and as I also mentioned, she talks about how to get yourself published. Now, my dream in life (apart from to go to / live in Australia of course) is to have at least one book published in my life, just something physical that I can hold in my hands and be like yeah, this is me – this is something I created. Even talking about it gets me so excited, it would be like….my first child. You know when you buy something and you’re like wow this is my baby, – my first book would essentially be that. I’m rambling. You get what I mean.

Anyway on this question where Orion talks about getting published, she mentions herself (obviously) and also other people such as Madisen Kuhn which is again super weird because these are all writers I used to admire so much before they ever became published or popular, so it’s weird now to see them all being talked about over the internet and having their books reviewed with excerpts being posted on Instagram etc., because I saw it all before it even happened. This in turn inspires me so much because essentially, I’ve watched these people grow and change and evolve and chase their dream, and that’s exactly what I want to do.

Becoming a famous writer and creating best selling novels would obviously be an incredibly wonderful thing and something I could only ever dream of however, who says I need to be successful in order to be published? I kind of had a lightbulb moment in the sense that I’ve always told myself I will get published one day, but because of where I’m at right now in terms of content (as in, I have ideas but haven’t actually started putting anything together yet so as of right now I don’t have anything to actually be published) I’ve just kind of always said to myself that yeah, I’ll do it, but in time when I’ve created something and I’m a bit more clued up on how to go about achieving the goal.

But this doesn’t have to be the case.

Why can’t I just start putting things together right now and publish them myself? (Before I continue rambling, I’m talking about a poetry book as such rather than a fictional novel) , a lot of writers start off self-publishing (Orion also mentions this in the video) and then I just thought yeah, why don’t I just do that? What’s stopping me? I think it was the fact that I wanted to obviously create something that other people could purchase / have and so the idea of self-publishing scared me a little bit because basically, I have no idea what I’m doing.

But then I thought, why do I have to create something that I’m trying to market? Why don’t I just create it anyway, for myself? Something that I can work on and put together, even if it’s only ever going to end up on my coffee table at home? So what? I would be so happy and proud of it either way, because it’s mine, it’s my work, my mind, my words, my art. Who says I can’t just create it for myself, isn’t that the point? Who cares if I’m the only one that’s ever going to read it and hold a copy in my hands?


Apart from the fact holding a physical copy of my own self-published book in my hands would make me the happiest girl alive anyway, it’s also something I could give to people when they ask me what I do, or what I’m passionate about, or what’s on my mind, or what I think about when I go to sleep at night. I could just hand them my book and say hey, read this – it’s all in here.

That to me would just be the most exciting and wonderful thing I could imagine and like I said, who cares if I only ever create one copy?

I’ve wanted to do something more physically creative for a while now, like I’ve told you guys before I’ve only ever written in journals / diaries or through a typewriter, or on this blog, but I’ve never really created something, it’s all just kind of there. I wanted to start an Etsy and do something with it, but I don’t really know what and I also don’t know how to market myself because I just enjoy writing and making people feel inspired, and I don’t really know much other than that.

So anyway, I’m going to have a look at self-publishing (if you guys know anything about it or have self-published before please let me know!) and it’s probably going to cost me a silly amount of money but again, I don’t care – CREATIVE FULFILMENT OVER ANYTHING ELSE. Right? If you’ve read Big Magic by Elizabeth Gilbert you’ll know exactly what I’m talking about right now. Never stop creating – even if you’re the only one there to see it!

I’ve wanted to start a little project for myself for such a long time now and this could be the beginning of an something super exciting, I have so many excerpts and journal entries and poems etc. that I just need to share with the world and so, why not start now? I’d also love to include drawings and pieces of artwork etc. for the visual content (because in terms of anything that includes holding a pencil or paintbrush, I’m horrendous) and so you guys could help me out with that too, right? I want it to be something I can share and talk through the process and get everyone involved in, because why not? Life’s too short not to.

So thank you for listening to me ramble again as always, if you guys have any advice / ideas / tips etc. (or any ideas for an Etsy??)– throw ‘em my way! I’d love to hear ♡

All my love,

Chloe .xx



22 thoughts on “publishing

  1. I wish everyone would be so encouraging/supportive and “swap books” out with each other that would be cool. Or telling you they’ll read your book even if no one else will. That’s so sweet. That’s love. Writing a book and having it published is something I have my mind set on as well, I want to start with a few poetry books and then work on novels. Though poetry is my favorite. Thanks for sharing this. Congratulations on your first book ahead of time!😊

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    1. Ahh me too girly, I will literally read anyone’s writing because it’s something personal to them and I love that. I’m in the same mindset as you! First poetry, then novels – baby steps for me! Thank you and good luck with yours!! xx


  2. I would love to write a poem book aswell because I have many poems written. You really should make it happen because you are an awesome writer! 💕 I’ve always watch some people grow and chase their dreams and thenk think to myself why can’t I do that too. I think you are going to do a great job ❤ I love you and wish you so much luck for all your dreams! May all your crazy, awesome and beautiful dreams come true because you deserve it so much 🌠❤😍

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    1. Thank you so much angel! ❤ I love you too – you should definitely go for it because there’s nothing stopping you! I’m sure they will be nothing short of amazing, thank you for being so lovely as always!! xxxx

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  3. Yesssssss! Go you! This is such an awesome and inspiring read Chloe! As you wrote – “I’ve watched these people grow and change and evolve and chase their dream, and that’s exactly what I want to do.” – That’s exactly what you are doing, right now. I can see you evolving and growing and working towards the good things you deserve. I’m so proud and happy for you! ❤

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  4. ARE WE THE SAME PERSON OR SOMETHING? After every sentence I found myself nodding along and saying “YES ME TOO” in my head. Orion Carloto has been such a creative influence for me, not just with poetry but also in film making. I think it’s so admirable that instead of waiting around for this fantasy future you are actually taking things into your own hands by saying “I want this so I’m going to make it happen”. That’s so strong and inspiring to me. xxx

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  5. i think some of my friends have used a site called createspace to self-publish their writing, you should look into that. but for what it’s worth, i think you’re a good enough writer to get your stuff professionally published.

    xo apollo

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  6. I have been telling myself that I will write my own book for years now. I kept putting it off because I made excuses like, “I’m too young” or “I have so much time.” But you’re right. Life is too short and if I want something, I need to go out and get it. The truth is, I think I was also just scared of starting something this big and not succeeding. I am going to work on that. I really hope that by the end of 2018, I will have completed one poetry collection and at least started writing a fictional book.

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    1. Exactly! I was so tired of letting the future dictate what I can and can’t do now, because there’s literally nothing stopping me. I hope everything works out for you lovely! xx


  7. It makes me really happy to see how motivated you are to get this done and I really wish you all the best and that it happens! From start to finish it will be worth every step and im super excited for it to start happening!!! xxx

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  8. Yesss you go girl!! I was talking to my Grandad at the weekend, he reads all of my blog posts and harps on to me how good he thinks my writing is. He told me to write a book, and I explained that the writing market, whether it be blogs, books, journalism, is incredibly hard to get into as there are a lot of people at it, to which he replied, well just write a book and send it to me to read. It was a real eye opener, like you’ve perfectly explained, who cares if no-one reads it?! You created it and it’s something you yourself can be so super proud of and share with those who you want to!?

    Since you posted about writing a few days ago, you inspired me to open up a fresh word document and start typing away. I’m determined to now create a book just for my Grandad to read.

    Let’s make a deal that once you’ve finished yours and I’ve finished mine, we’ll swap and read each others?xx

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    1. Yesss! Oh I’m so glad you had that little eye opener – I swear we are the same person?! After I had the whole realisation of “life’s too short” I was like, why am I going to let other people’s opinions determine whether I get to write my book or not? What if I die tomorrow and I leave nothing for my parents etc.? I don’t know, I just wanted a little piece of me to be here forever, even if it’s only ever going to be read by one person – I think writing that book for your Grandad is a wonderful idea, imagine how happy it will make him!! 100% deal that we’ll swap after we’ve finished!! xxxx

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