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Hi angels!

If you know anything about me (which you do, because I mention it a lot) you will know that Harry over here is the love of my life and basically just my favourite person on the whole entire planet. Ever since little 12 year old me saw him on X Factor that one Saturday in his fashionable chinos and neck scarf (….) I was hooked. 8 years later, I’m still hooked. Hook line and sinker, there’s no getting out. I’m going to be in this deep dark pit of despair until I’m on my death bed and even then I’ll still be complaining about the fact I never allowed this man to come into my life and ruin it, yet here I am. People told me it was a phase but oh no, the fake fans dropped out after a couple of years yet here I am as a grown ass woman (is 20 considered a grown ass woman?) still going strong.

I was the 3rd Harry fan account to ever be created on Twitter (oh yes, you’re talking to a celebrity) and had that from when I was about 12-17 and it reached 60,000 followers which was crazy to me ’cause all I used to ever do was tweet my (apparently funny) opinions and thoughts on H / 1D and just hope they’d never see it (side note – they didn’t). After my best friend passed at 15 I stopped using it because my heart wasn’t in it anymore (fan accounts are a serious thing y’know) and so from 16-17 I kind of just used to dip in and out until I eventually stopped using it altogether, and now it just sits there lonely and barren…waiting for me to come back.

Anyway, enough with the dramatic scene setting – you get the idea. If you need to know anything about Harry / 1D – I’m your girl. I know them better than they know themselves. You could present me with a picture of a fingernail and I could confirm to you whether or not it was Harry’s. I’m kidding. But not really. I’m not a psycho I just know a lot of stuff okay, I didn’t spend 6 years of my life in love with a boyband to come out with nothing. 

So anyway, swiftly moving on…I’ve been to every 1D tour there’s ever been and so obviously when they decided to break up and ruin the lives of teenage girls across the nation, my only thought was that Harry was obviously going to release new music and then TOUR THAT SHIT across the world, so obviously when he released a tour date in my city I was like HELL YES, I’M THERE.

So that’s what this post is about, I saw him on Saturday (7th April) and now I’m gonna shut up and show you the photos because I know that’s what you’re really here to see and you don’t care about my 1D history (let’s be honest who could blame you).

I only took videos of him actually during the concert so I won’t include those because I’d be here forever (and all you can hear is me screaming “YAAAAAAAAAASSSSS!!!!!!!!!” every time he does a high note / picks up the LGBTQ flag / sings THAT line in Medicine – if you know you know). But here are some photos of the rest!!

p.s. – this day was a whole year since Sign of The Times came out and it was his first show back in the UK!!

Like I said, I only took videos during the actual concert so I’m going to show you some of the polaroid photos in the book I bought instead and we can all marvel at how fantastic he is – he had this instead of programmes and I love it.

Oh yes kids, it was pink
I wanted him to wear this floral suit for the show but he didn’t :(( He wore a pastel blue one instead which was still wonderful so all is forgiven
have you ever seen such a ray of light
it’s a yes from me
have you ever seen someone rock a yellow suit so well, the answer is no you haven’t, king of extravagant suits right here
yellow suit pt. 2
I adore you 8 million times
muse muse muse muse
I love you forevereverever
the best the best the best

There were also these really sweet girls going around and handing these out to everyone so that when he sang If I Could Fly, the whole arena would be lit up in colours and it worked – it looked AMAZING

Everyone was so wonderful and the whole thing was amazing, it’s so incredible to be in a room full of people that share the same love and adoration for someone as you do, it’s great to be able to share it and know that he knew looking out from that stage, every single person in that room was there because they loved him, it really was the best feeling. One of the first things he said when he got on stage that night was “please feel free to be whoever it is that you want to be in this room tonight, and do what makes you happy.” – I think that says it all. He’s literally an angel.

I have so much love and respect for this man, he’s the most incredible and wonderful person and I’ve said this since I was 12 years old and I will continue to say it still – he is and never has been just a ‘good looking member of a boyband’ to me, he is so much more. 8 years is a very long time to follow someone’s journey and support them every step of the way, I’ve literally grown up with him as a constant part of my life and he always will be, I honestly mean it when I say he’s my favourite person because since 12 years old he’s been a source of light in my life and I wouldn’t change a thing, I want him to continue to flourish and grow like he has been over the past couple of years and I can’t wait to see what he does next. It’s an honour to be able to support someone as incredible as he is and that will never change, whether I’m 12, 20, 200 I will always feel the same and I’m not embarrassed by that – people who don’t understand the concept of loving someone you’ve never met will try and make you feel embarrassed about the whole thing and that you should grow up or get over it and my reply to that is a big fuck you to those people. Since leaving One Direction it’s now a lot cooler to like him all of a sudden and everyone seems to be jumping on the bandwagon but at the end of the day I’m just happy he’s getting the love and support that he deserves – there were a lot of people from all ages in that room on Saturday and it was a wonderful thing to see.

Anyway, I hope you enjoyed this post loves and always remember,
treat people with kindness. 🏳️‍🌈 🌈 ❤️🧡💛💚💙💜

All my love,

Chloe .xx


  1. GIRL ARE WE THE SAME PERSON?? I also went to harry styles (on day 2) and it was soooo amazing . The safe space his concert supported will be in my heart always and he’s such an amazing man urghhhh. ps. he looked so freaking GOOD like wthhhhhhh
    ps. the first paragraph is literally MEE – what have one direction done to us haha

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  2. I love Harry Styles so much and also 1D 😍😘I find it really cool that you created a fan account ❤️ I love fan accounts so much and to share the same music. Being a fan girl is amazing and only those who are, understand each other. It inspires me so much. Music is life 😍 I would love to see Harry Styles live one day 🎶🎧

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  3. Yessss I’m glad you enjoyed yourself girl! I went that day too (I’m pretty sure we’ve spoke about this before!!) and I cried so so much. I was a huge fan of 1D when I was younger, like 12/13 and I never had the chance to see them because I didn’t have that kind of cash haha! When I turned up to the show, I was like okay I’m not gonna cry or be a fan girl because I swore I wasn’t that person anymore but you know full well that as soon as Harry came on the stage, I was back to being 12 year old me. Also, when he sang ~that~ lyric, I think I screamed too hahaha x

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    1. Hahaha yaaay, I’ve literally cried my eyes out at every One Direction concert I’ve been to because I really am just THAT emotional but this time I managed to keep it together !! I was like you’re here to appreciate this man Chloe don’t cry don’t cry…DON’T cry haha, but when he did If I Could Fly I will admit I shed a few tears!! That lyric was the highlight of the night for me, I was waiting for him to do it!! X

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  4. I was never a fan of 1D, but I actually really like Harry Styles on his own – and his fashion sense is just fucking awesome! So glad you got to see him, there’s genuinely nothing like the connection of live music and being surrounded by people who all love the person on stage like you do! ❤

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    1. Even though I loved 1D I was excited for Harry to do his own thing cause like you said – he’s amazing on his own and his fashion sense is DEFINITELY fucking awesome – I think going solo really allowed him to grow into the artist he was always meant to be and I’m so glad people love it ❤️x

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  5. Ah man, sounds beautiful; and your fangirl history with the band definitely trumped the pictures. Actually no, I take that back, just saw the yellow suit. Cheers! 🙂

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  6. I’m so glad you were able to see him live! My friend facetimed me during his concert and he sounded incredible live. I’m so glad you were able to maintain your love of him despite other people’s opinions. xx

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  7. I am so very very very jealous of you!!!! I’m going to see him live in June and I cannot wait. I’ve loved Harry since about 2011 when I first discovered One Direction and the feeling of knowing I am going to see him live is just crazy 🙂 After reading this, I’m even more excited (p.s I am a “crazy” one direction fan too haha!) xx

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      1. By the way, I really enjoyed this post. I think there is so much truth in what you said about people throwing around judgement because you look up to someone. I think celebrities can be great role models to us if they use their voice in the right way. xx

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  8. ahhh i love harry styles.

    here’s something pretty cool: my sisters boyfriends mom (still with me?) is actually friends with harry styles mom. not in person, but after mrs. styles husband died the two of them started talking over facebook and they still do a lot today. also at one point she sent mrs. styles an encouragement note and she posted it on her facebook page.

    anyways, lovely post! i’m glad you enjoyed the show 🙂


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    1. Still with you! That’s super cute and such a lovely gesture, I bet Anne appreciated that so much. Can’t imagine what it must have been like for all of them to go through something like that but the support they received was overwhelming, Robin would be so proud of all of them 💜 thank you for reading lovely! xx

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  9. Oh my God Chloe the first paragraph so accurately describes my entire life since those fools entered it and the whole Twitter thing kind of gives me war flashbacks…I’M LITERALLY SEEING HIM THIS MONTH TOO!! I’ve been waiting to see them all touring for so long, and him and Niall (omg fave though) announced their tours I loaded the ticket pages a good week before they were released. I’m so glad you enjoyed it and I too cannot WAIT to here that one line in Medicine hahaha xx

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    1. Hahaha since these LOSERS just came along and completely ruined it, what would we do without them though aye – where are you seeing him girl !! It was incredible you’re going to LOVE it, honestly when he sings that line you’ve gotta scream at the top of your voice hahaha I was like YES CHILD SING IT !!!!! xxx

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      1. Hahaha honestly couldn’t imagine the last eight years without them though, I don’t know what I’d be doing, and I’m seeing him in Melbourne!! So buzzed, I can’t wait!! xx

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  10. This was such a great and positive post, I loved reading it! I love concerts myself, so I understand your emotions perfectly. + I love the fuck you to all the people that want to make us feel guilty and bad for being invested in music! 🙂

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