It’s official – I created this blog exactly two years ago today and Midnight Wander is now two years old !!
Time has honestly flown by so fast, I think I said this in the post I made last year but I can’t believe I’ve consistently uploaded 2 / 3 times a week, every week, for the last two years. Crazy stuff. But I guess that just shows how much I really love doing this – and I do. This blog is everything to me and I’d be so lost without it, it’s played such a big part in my mental health journey, discovering who I am and just generally being able to express myself without judgement and finding likeminded people.
Speaking of which, I love you guys so much. I genuinely wish you all knew how much I adore each and every one of you, for even bothering to follow my blog or like a post or read the whole thing from start to finish (because I know I ramble a lot) or even posting a comment with your wonderful words as always. It means more to me than I could ever tell you and you’re the reason I’ve been able to change everything. I’ve been able to share the deepest, darkest parts of myself, I’ve been able to express myself and write to my heart’s content, to talk about the things I love and share things I think you guys might like too. I’ve met so many amazing people and created so many beautiful friendships through my little corner of the internet and I hope that continues to grow for the rest of time. I honestly now can’t see myself ever stopping this, even when I’m 80 I’ll probably still be writing on here and doing a knitting haul or telling you which mobility scooter you should buy after I’ve compared the prices.
I don’t know how any of you found my blog, I don’t advertise it anywhere and you guys are literally the only people that know it exists but hi, hello, I’m glad to have you. However you found me I hope you feel safe here and know it’s a place where you can be free and most importantly, be yourself. I hope this blog provides you with comfort and I hope that you know I’m only a quick message or comment away should you ever need me. I hope it inspires you and I hope it gives you the faith that better days are coming, even if it doesn’t feel like it right now.
Thank you all for allowing me to be myself and for accepting and loving me for it – my creativity is in overflow and you all constantly inspire me to be better. I’m excited about things now. I’m excited about life, in fact, this blog may have even saved my life, it probably did if you’ve seen some of my previous posts where I had a lot of bad days. But even then, thank you for allowing me to share them with you, sometimes it’s hard to keep things bottled up when you’ve been silent for so long. Sometimes you just need to know that you’re getting your feelings out somewhere, even if no one’s listening, even if there’s no one there to read about them, but you guys were and you accepted them regardless. So thank you.
I really do love you all a lot and I love Midnight Wander a lot too, hell, I might even love myself a lot for creating it in the first place and making it what it is today, because this blog is my favourite place to be, and when I look back on the things I’ve written, I’m proud. I’m happy with what I’ve created and I hope to continue that for many years to come.
Here’s to another 938030923 years of blogging (yes, I shall be hauling and writing monthly music posts from beyond the grave) and even when I am gone someday, my writings will always be here in this little corner of the internet, forever here for anyone and everyone to read – a piece of me that will always be permanent. My little mark on the world.
All my love (and so much more),
p.s. – does anyone ever wonder what this picture is?
it’s my head, if any of you were wondering…I probably need to change my icon at some point (and now is not that time, but yes, these really are the things that keep me up at night)