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my top 10 blog posts of 2019

Hello my loves!

Happy (late) Christmas! I hope you all had the most wonderful day if you celebrate and got everything you wanted πŸ’—πŸŽ…πŸΌπŸŽ„

I did this post in 2017 and 2018 so I thought it was only right I did one for 2019 too! The idea of this is for me to go through my top 10 favourite blog posts that I’ve uploaded this year and talk about them, almost like a little recap. Let’s go ☺️

(these are in no particular order)


look now, the sky is golden

I feel like this year for me was about documenting moments in my life. I have a lot of memories that vividly stand out to me and I always like to get them down on paper so I can capture that feeling forever, to capture the imagery and what it was like to be there, living it. This particular memory had been in the back of my mind for a long time but I’d never gotten around to getting it down until one day when it felt like the perfect time for it all to spill out, and this post was born.

we still are

Again, another memory I needed to get down on paper, one that I am so very fond of and one that will stay with me for a long time. That experience for me was like sitting on the edge of the world, like I was the only person left on Earth, and it was beautiful. The solitariness was beautiful.

my 11th and most important tattoo

A really important one and something that was a huge impact on me this year whilst simultaneously being something that lifted a great weight off my shoulders – I finally did it! The idea was finally born and I finally got it tattooed on me forever. This was one of my favourite 2019 memories and I’m so, so grateful to have this beautiful art now on my body forever, in dedication to the most beautiful person. This post also allowed me to talk again in depth about this particular person and how they sent lightning across the skies. I’m proud of it.

she used to be mine / butterfly fly away

I’ve put two posts here because neither of them stand out to me fully so I’m not sure which one is better, so to speak. Both of these are kind of sad and honest (what’s new) but I feel they were important to share, more so for myself. Sometimes I just need to get things down and with being honest comes honest feelings which, unfortunately for me a lot of the time is sadness. These posts are beautiful in their own special ways and I hope I can read back on them in time and appreciate them all over again.

love yourself, speak yourself – bts at wembley

Single handedly my favourite memory of 2019 by a million miles. I still can’t believe it happened and I still can’t believe I did it. I stepped so far out of my comfort zone I didn’t even know where I was and despite being more terrified than I’ve ever been in my life I got through it and I did it because my love for those people is so strong there was no way I was going to let my mental health ruin things for me. Not this time. I ended up having one of the best nights of my life and this is a memory I’ll treasure and remember forever and always. I’m so so grateful and lucky to have experienced the whole thing and to have the opportunity and I’m so proud of myself for doing it. Seriously one of my favourite memories ever. The best night.


One of my favourites, something that I feel had been in the back of my mind for a long time but that I’d never gotten around to writing about and finally I did. It’s always so satisfying when that happens and you feel like everything has been really rounded off due to the outcome. I feel like with this post I ticked another thing off the list, you know? Like, I’d written about it without thinking almost but the product of that session was something beautiful and I was really happy with how it turned out because the whole thing was written almost subconsciously. I don’t know if that makes sense. Anyway, I love this one a lot.

stop talking life serious(ly)

I had actually written this post a long time before I ever uploaded it because I just never felt like it was the right time but finally, it was. I really like this one, it was fun.

trying my hand at drawing

A post I’m really proud of! This kind of blew up which was completely unexpected but it was nice that it did as it’s always nice when you branch out from the norm a little bit and it goes well. Definitely going to turn this into a series (the next post is currently in the works) and yeah, I’m just really thankful for all the support I got on this one πŸ’— hehe.

letting go – a chat about anxiety

I feel like this year I’ve started to talk about anxiety a lot more which is important to me since usually I only talk about depression, but I want to make sure I give a voice for both. I think this is the longest and most in-depth post I’ve made about anxiety where I just got everything out and really felt like I did my own anxiety justice…if that make sense. I feel like I explained it all the way I needed to and yeah, just left everything on the floor, so to speak.

the time of my life fighting dragons with you

Again, another moment I guess I wanted to talk about so I could tick it off the list. The particular title of this post is a line that I actually used in the eulogy on the day as it was something that immediately came to mind when writing the speech, and it’s been a motif for me ever since. That line will always be very important to me, it reminds me of a lot of things and I’m very grateful to Taylor Swift for writing it. I’m glad I wrote this post as I wasn’t sure if it was something I wanted to share or not but, I’m glad I did.


I feel like a lot of these are ‘documenting moment’ type posts but I’m glad I did a lot of those this year. I feel like I’ve met so many more of you this year too so this is an official hi hello and welcome to the blog πŸ’— I always love seeing new faces and of course, thank you as well to the familiar faces who have been with me for a while now – you’re the best.

All my love,

Chloe .xx

6 thoughts on “my top 10 blog posts of 2019

  1. I LOVE YOUR BLOG!!!! πŸ’–πŸ’–πŸ’– I love all your posts so much. I loved the one of anxiety because it made me feel less alone. I really needed that post. It was beautiful. The one of she used to be mine is one of my fav too and I cried while reading that one. It was so pure, honest and vulnerable. Thank you for inspiring me and being one of my best friends. I love you so much πŸ’žπŸ’žπŸ’ž

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    1. I LOVE YOU !! πŸ’žπŸ’ž Thank you so much for your wonderful support as always angel girl, it means the world to me. I’m glad the anxiety post made you feel less alone. Remember I’m always here. Love you a lot lot xxx

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  2. Ooh I remember your β€˜trying my hand at drawing post’ it was awesome! Glad you love that one and it’s made this list! So excited to read the other posts you’ve recapped here too, I’m sure you’ll be getting lots of views from me over the next few days as I read them, haha! Happy new year beaut, enjoy!

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  3. this is awesome! I really fell off the track with blogging this year and I am going through my emails that post blog updates to look through one’s that stand out to me. I love that you made the blogs most important to you in one post. I did something similar in the past but this year I might link them all since I have very few. I am excited to look through these posts, especially now knowing how much they mean to you! Blessings & Happy Holidays!

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