listening to tom misch. wishing i could get everything down that’s in my head and being frustrated that i can’t . wound up . pent up . when i’m at home i feel like i’m ill . like i have to act as though there’s something wrong with me, which there is, but i have… Continue reading lost in paris
Tag: depression
2000 followers!
Hello my loves, I cannot believe I'm saying this, but...thank you for 2000 followers. When I first started this blog back in early 2017, I used to follow people who had really amazing blogs with therefore, a lot of followers, and I was so inspired and used to think wow, I hope one day I… Continue reading 2000 followers!
beautiful world, where are you
Winter is different for me this year and it’s so nice, I don’t want to jinx it but that’s how it is. I feel happy and light and controlled and…not depressed. I don’t think the seasonal depression or Winter blues will get me this year, I’m finding myself able to enjoy Winter (aka, my favourite… Continue reading beautiful world, where are you
sour
Anxiety, anxiety, started following me. To put it lightly. It’s driving me crazy. Ever since this anxiety trip it’s been a constant battle, I’ve lost myself a lot and ever since it’s just been a battle of fighting to try and get myself back and more importantly, to stay there. I don’t feel very stable.… Continue reading sour
rain running
Walking has become my new saviour. Anxiety has become the prison I find myself trapped in and I’ve been searching for things that allow me to set myself free. I bought Spotify premium and mental health-wise it’s been such a good investment. I use Spotify everyday anyway, but recently I’ve been using it even more… Continue reading rain running
anxiety trip
14/09/21 I lost my mind last week. Well, I didn’t, but I might as well have done. It felt like I did. It was one of the worst anxiety trips I’ve ever had, and it lasted for essentially an entire week. Normally when I have spells like that they’ll last a few days at a… Continue reading anxiety trip
earthside
my anxiety has been playing up a lot lately . i’ve decided in order to fix this i should be spending time outdoors . i’ve also been reading conversations with friends by sally rooney and have noticed my inner monologue change to that of frances and the way that she thinks . or maybe we… Continue reading earthside
I don’t want the world to see me / iris
- an old post I wrote a long time ago, but one I'm going to share today - not everything is still applicable now, but it was at the time. 16/06/18 I remember being 12 or 13 driving home from somewhere with my family. I was staring out of the window zoning out until the… Continue reading I don’t want the world to see me / iris
drowning
turning sadness into art . turning you into poetry . you should be grateful i write you down . i’m grateful i write at all . when you’re gone all i do is think about you and it hurts me to watch you leave . you left in my rear view mirror and i thought… Continue reading drowning
butterfly soliloquy
Sometimes I think comfort and home can be present in a person straight away, rather than something you build up to. I read once that after the initial butterflies die down you don't get them anymore, because what you get instead is comfort and familiarity because this person is your home and they never make… Continue reading butterfly soliloquy
~ midnight wanderer ~ 