Hello my loves, I haven’t written in a while, properly. I seem to have kind of stopped doing that lately. I’ve currently been writing everything in my physical journal as of recent, because it feels better and like it does a better job of purging my feelings that way, though it seems I can only… Continue reading waiting for the year to end
Tag: depression
july
05/07/22 I am so sad. I don't know what's wrong with me. I feel like I'm falling apart. I just want to listen to Taylor's Red album and cry. Or the Unbroken album. I feel like I'm 18 and sad again. I don't know what's happening. It feels like a little depression cloud is making… Continue reading july
6th June
Hello my loves, Today marks 9 years since my best friend, my sister and my soulmate was taken away from me. A lovely uplifting sentence to introduce the post as always. What do I feel today? I'm not sure. Usually, or, well, I say usually, I guess up until the last few years, I would… Continue reading 6th June
going to therapy
Hello my loves, As you can probably tell from the title of this post, I'm finally going to therapy. Well, I've already been, once, and am now continuing to go. I mentioned in my mental break post that I was being referred for intensive therapy, which I still am, but the wait list was so… Continue reading going to therapy
Happy 5th Birthday Midnight Wanderer!
Hello my loves, Happy 5th birthday to Midnight Wanderer! It feels like such a long and short time since I created this blog, but what's for certain is a lot has changed and happened since then, and it's very strange that it's all logged here for essentially eternity, and I can go back to different… Continue reading Happy 5th Birthday Midnight Wanderer!
breakdown diary #4
today feels surreal, like no one's around. i went to the gym and it was empty, so i stayed on the treadmill for an hour listening to blur with my eyes closed feeling like i was somewhere else. watching all of the tiny people going about their lives in the windows below, knowing i wasn't… Continue reading breakdown diary #4
breakdown diary #2
Hello my loves, Just documenting this as and when so some of it may be incoherent, in which case, apologies. The first night I took my anti-depressants they knocked me out for 15 hours straight, didn’t even have the energy to open my eyes and could have continued sleeping. The following day (yesterday) wasn’t much… Continue reading breakdown diary #2
breakdown diary #1
get in the shower if it all goes wrong Hello my loves, I didn't know what to call these, but as I was just in the shower I thought I would start documenting things and just talking, because like everyone else, I do a lot of thinking in the shower. Lots of meandering. I figured… Continue reading breakdown diary #1
mental break
Hi my loves, As you all know I struggle with mental health quite a fair bit and well, lately it’s been absolutely debilitating for me. I can’t function and I’m scared and fragile and I’m not in control of my head or my thoughts and I don’t know what’s happening to me and I feel… Continue reading mental break
long story short // cornelia street
can't say i know what's happening to me at the minute, my emotions are what you'd call all over the place. the week has been emotional, for no reason whatsoever - i've just felt every emotion i could in a short space of time and they've all bled in to each other. i've been laughing… Continue reading long story short // cornelia street
~ midnight wanderer ~ 