Hello my loves, As you can probably tell from the title of this post, I'm finally going to therapy. Well, I've already been, once, and am now continuing to go. I mentioned in my mental break post that I was being referred for intensive therapy, which I still am, but the wait list was so… Continue reading going to therapy
Tag: Lifestyle
breakdown diary #4
today feels surreal, like no one's around. i went to the gym and it was empty, so i stayed on the treadmill for an hour listening to blur with my eyes closed feeling like i was somewhere else. watching all of the tiny people going about their lives in the windows below, knowing i wasn't… Continue reading breakdown diary #4
breakdown diary #3
heart out Sleep is now a crazy thing, getting knocked out and sent into such a deep sleep that I can't wake up from. When I do finally wake up, I'm fully awake in my head but have no energy to even open my eyes or speak, I literally cannot get out of bed. In… Continue reading breakdown diary #3
breakdown diary #2
Hello my loves, Just documenting this as and when so some of it may be incoherent, in which case, apologies. The first night I took my anti-depressants they knocked me out for 15 hours straight, didn’t even have the energy to open my eyes and could have continued sleeping. The following day (yesterday) wasn’t much… Continue reading breakdown diary #2
breakdown diary #1
get in the shower if it all goes wrong Hello my loves, I didn't know what to call these, but as I was just in the shower I thought I would start documenting things and just talking, because like everyone else, I do a lot of thinking in the shower. Lots of meandering. I figured… Continue reading breakdown diary #1
mental break
Hi my loves, As you all know I struggle with mental health quite a fair bit and well, lately it’s been absolutely debilitating for me. I can’t function and I’m scared and fragile and I’m not in control of my head or my thoughts and I don’t know what’s happening to me and I feel… Continue reading mental break
i’m learning
feels like summer, which is something i realised i’d missed. walking around with no makeup on and my hair falling down past my shoulders as the breeze rolls in through the open window. lying there watching you sleep and you look so peaceful, like everything i ever wanted and more. listening to the little noises… Continue reading i’m learning
don’t you worry child
Last night I didn’t speak to anyone for the entire night and was left to my own devices because no one was around. I felt very strong and womanly, like I could do my own thing and look after myself. I could rationalise all of my thoughts and be okay with the fact I was… Continue reading don’t you worry child
London Birthday Trip – A Photo Diary 🇬🇧
Hello my loves, As I mentioned in my 24th birthday post, my friend and I went to London for a couple of days to celebrate and we had such a great time! We took so many photos (most of which I haven't edited) which of course means, a photo diary! I'll try to show the… Continue reading London Birthday Trip – A Photo Diary 🇬🇧
24
Hello my loves, It’s my birthday today! I’m 24. Not sure how I feel today, I feel sad...but hopeful. Lately there have been significant things that have changed in my life but if anything, I feel relieved and almost re-born, and now I’m healing and re-building. I feel hopeful for the future, there’s so many… Continue reading 24
~ midnight wanderer ~ 