Hello my loves, Today marks 9 years since my best friend, my sister and my soulmate was taken away from me. A lovely uplifting sentence to introduce the post as always. What do I feel today? I'm not sure. Usually, or, well, I say usually, I guess up until the last few years, I would… Continue reading 6th June
Tag: mental illness
going to therapy
Hello my loves, As you can probably tell from the title of this post, I'm finally going to therapy. Well, I've already been, once, and am now continuing to go. I mentioned in my mental break post that I was being referred for intensive therapy, which I still am, but the wait list was so… Continue reading going to therapy
breakdown diary #3
heart out Sleep is now a crazy thing, getting knocked out and sent into such a deep sleep that I can't wake up from. When I do finally wake up, I'm fully awake in my head but have no energy to even open my eyes or speak, I literally cannot get out of bed. In… Continue reading breakdown diary #3
breakdown diary #2
Hello my loves, Just documenting this as and when so some of it may be incoherent, in which case, apologies. The first night I took my anti-depressants they knocked me out for 15 hours straight, didn’t even have the energy to open my eyes and could have continued sleeping. The following day (yesterday) wasn’t much… Continue reading breakdown diary #2
breakdown diary #1
get in the shower if it all goes wrong Hello my loves, I didn't know what to call these, but as I was just in the shower I thought I would start documenting things and just talking, because like everyone else, I do a lot of thinking in the shower. Lots of meandering. I figured… Continue reading breakdown diary #1
mental break
Hi my loves, As you all know I struggle with mental health quite a fair bit and well, lately it’s been absolutely debilitating for me. I can’t function and I’m scared and fragile and I’m not in control of my head or my thoughts and I don’t know what’s happening to me and I feel… Continue reading mental break
long story short // cornelia street
can't say i know what's happening to me at the minute, my emotions are what you'd call all over the place. the week has been emotional, for no reason whatsoever - i've just felt every emotion i could in a short space of time and they've all bled in to each other. i've been laughing… Continue reading long story short // cornelia street
lost in paris
listening to tom misch. wishing i could get everything down that’s in my head and being frustrated that i can’t . wound up . pent up . when i’m at home i feel like i’m ill . like i have to act as though there’s something wrong with me, which there is, but i have… Continue reading lost in paris
2000 followers!
Hello my loves, I cannot believe I'm saying this, but...thank you for 2000 followers. When I first started this blog back in early 2017, I used to follow people who had really amazing blogs with therefore, a lot of followers, and I was so inspired and used to think wow, I hope one day I… Continue reading 2000 followers!
beautiful world, where are you
Winter is different for me this year and it’s so nice, I don’t want to jinx it but that’s how it is. I feel happy and light and controlled and…not depressed. I don’t think the seasonal depression or Winter blues will get me this year, I’m finding myself able to enjoy Winter (aka, my favourite… Continue reading beautiful world, where are you
~ midnight wanderer ~ 