Hello my loves, As you can probably tell from the title of this post, I'm finally going to therapy. Well, I've already been, once, and am now continuing to go. I mentioned in my mental break post that I was being referred for intensive therapy, which I still am, but the wait list was so… Continue reading going to therapy
Tag: personal
Happy 5th Birthday Midnight Wanderer!
Hello my loves, Happy 5th birthday to Midnight Wanderer! It feels like such a long and short time since I created this blog, but what's for certain is a lot has changed and happened since then, and it's very strange that it's all logged here for essentially eternity, and I can go back to different… Continue reading Happy 5th Birthday Midnight Wanderer!
breakdown diary #4
today feels surreal, like no one's around. i went to the gym and it was empty, so i stayed on the treadmill for an hour listening to blur with my eyes closed feeling like i was somewhere else. watching all of the tiny people going about their lives in the windows below, knowing i wasn't… Continue reading breakdown diary #4
breakdown diary #3
heart out Sleep is now a crazy thing, getting knocked out and sent into such a deep sleep that I can't wake up from. When I do finally wake up, I'm fully awake in my head but have no energy to even open my eyes or speak, I literally cannot get out of bed. In… Continue reading breakdown diary #3
breakdown diary #2
Hello my loves, Just documenting this as and when so some of it may be incoherent, in which case, apologies. The first night I took my anti-depressants they knocked me out for 15 hours straight, didn’t even have the energy to open my eyes and could have continued sleeping. The following day (yesterday) wasn’t much… Continue reading breakdown diary #2
breakdown diary #1
get in the shower if it all goes wrong Hello my loves, I didn't know what to call these, but as I was just in the shower I thought I would start documenting things and just talking, because like everyone else, I do a lot of thinking in the shower. Lots of meandering. I figured… Continue reading breakdown diary #1
mental break
Hi my loves, As you all know I struggle with mental health quite a fair bit and well, lately it’s been absolutely debilitating for me. I can’t function and I’m scared and fragile and I’m not in control of my head or my thoughts and I don’t know what’s happening to me and I feel… Continue reading mental break
i’m learning
feels like summer, which is something i realised i’d missed. walking around with no makeup on and my hair falling down past my shoulders as the breeze rolls in through the open window. lying there watching you sleep and you look so peaceful, like everything i ever wanted and more. listening to the little noises… Continue reading i’m learning
don’t you worry child
Last night I didn’t speak to anyone for the entire night and was left to my own devices because no one was around. I felt very strong and womanly, like I could do my own thing and look after myself. I could rationalise all of my thoughts and be okay with the fact I was… Continue reading don’t you worry child
long story short // cornelia street
can't say i know what's happening to me at the minute, my emotions are what you'd call all over the place. the week has been emotional, for no reason whatsoever - i've just felt every emotion i could in a short space of time and they've all bled in to each other. i've been laughing… Continue reading long story short // cornelia street
~ midnight wanderer ~ 