today feels surreal, like no one's around. i went to the gym and it was empty, so i stayed on the treadmill for an hour listening to blur with my eyes closed feeling like i was somewhere else. watching all of the tiny people going about their lives in the windows below, knowing i wasn't… Continue reading breakdown diary #4
Tag: writing
i’m learning
feels like summer, which is something i realised i’d missed. walking around with no makeup on and my hair falling down past my shoulders as the breeze rolls in through the open window. lying there watching you sleep and you look so peaceful, like everything i ever wanted and more. listening to the little noises… Continue reading i’m learning
long story short // cornelia street
can't say i know what's happening to me at the minute, my emotions are what you'd call all over the place. the week has been emotional, for no reason whatsoever - i've just felt every emotion i could in a short space of time and they've all bled in to each other. i've been laughing… Continue reading long story short // cornelia street
ghosts // starting line
two parts of the same song I haven’t written in a while, I don’t know if I’ve got that much to say. Or maybe, I have things to say but I don’t really want to say them. How long will we think about the people we’ve loved – forever? How long will we think about… Continue reading ghosts // starting line
dear 2022
Hello my loves, I answered these questions on January 1st, 2021 and posted about them here. I thought it was only right for me to answer the same questions again on January 1st, 2022, to see how far I've come and what's changed. Because this year I'm typing them up and not writing them, it… Continue reading dear 2022
lost in paris
listening to tom misch. wishing i could get everything down that’s in my head and being frustrated that i can’t . wound up . pent up . when i’m at home i feel like i’m ill . like i have to act as though there’s something wrong with me, which there is, but i have… Continue reading lost in paris
2000 followers!
Hello my loves, I cannot believe I'm saying this, but...thank you for 2000 followers. When I first started this blog back in early 2017, I used to follow people who had really amazing blogs with therefore, a lot of followers, and I was so inspired and used to think wow, I hope one day I… Continue reading 2000 followers!
junk of the heart (happy)
july 2021, or was it june Drunk. Happy. We bond over our memory of a song. I’m searching through your Spotify playlists and gasp when I see one of my favourites in there, wondering how you found it and what the chances were of you even knowing it. I think it’s fate. The title of… Continue reading junk of the heart (happy)
earthside
my anxiety has been playing up a lot lately . i’ve decided in order to fix this i should be spending time outdoors . i’ve also been reading conversations with friends by sally rooney and have noticed my inner monologue change to that of frances and the way that she thinks . or maybe we… Continue reading earthside
tulsa jesus freak
it’s 10pm. summer. kind of . i’m lying here in the dark listening to lana . the noise of a fan whirrs in the background, cool air falls over me and my hair moves in the breeze as it oscillates. i’m wearing an oversized t-shirt, there’s bruises on my legs from i don’t know where… Continue reading tulsa jesus freak
~ midnight wanderer ~ 